First and foremost, thanks and praises go to the most high, the one most high creator of all. I appreciate my ancestors, and recognize a few of the things that they have gone through.
As a member of the African American community, I have begun research into mental health counseling and trying to find the resources and assistance to improve my own mental health circumstances.
As a military brat, I feel that it is important for me to address some of my childhood trauma, from various situations that I voluntarily entered as a kid. I am working on creating a curriculum that would help students and/or teachers of my culture in order to create a better and more harmonious society. Sitting here as I type, it reminds me that I have been very vain, and yet, I am looking to achieve my goal. My goal is to empower youth, Black and Brown youth is my primary focus, and in order to attain that goal, I will provide materials and place them in an area (such as this website) so that youth have a one-stop shop of information.
Now that that is passed, let us get down to the nitty gritty.
|Lack of African American/Black Practitioners||In 2015, only 4 % of Therapist in America were black.||With African American employees in the workforce, we should have more programs for mental health in recognition of the detriments of white supremacy/racism ideologies.|
|EAP is sort of voluntary, how can Black Practitioners earn a living?||Out of the 7 counselors I have made contact with, only 1 recognizes Carebridge EAP||Carebridge should allow more minorities as EAP providers, giving them resources to succeed.|
|Lack of usage by employers regardless of race and gender.||3.5 % of employees utilize EAP||Increase Awareness of EAP and provide personal experiences for employees.|
My Journey with Carebridge EAP
June 1, 2021
I made a mental commitment to seek mental health therapy.
June 9, 2021
Second guessing myself, do I really need counseling?
What are the benefits?
As a black man, is it even something that I should do?
Started to review some youtube videos for more perspective.
June 15th, 2021
Still doubting my journey, what is the purpose of this?
Who am I going to find that can help me?
Shouldn’t I just be able to open myself up to my friends? I trust and love them, why not just open up to them?
What benefits can therapy offer that friends and family can’t?
June 30th, 2021
Around this time, started looking more seriously at the EAP my employer offers.
6 free sessions for 6 different topics for a total of 36 sessions!
I just got to find a way to use this, how can we find a benefit from this?
July 13th, 2021
Let the outreach begin!!
I finally started to make contact with counselors:
Guess what my results are?!
Nothing still no counselor that is available for me. Carebridge EAP only acknowledges certain clinical psychologists.
There were two Psychologists recommended to me in the Arizona Phoenix Area:
- A woman who I think I annoyed with my multiple calls and many questions
- A man whom specializes in gambling
Needless to say, these are not the psychologists that I had in mind.
July 20th, 2021
Contacted Dr. Na’im Akbar, a man whose body of work, is phenomenal. Dr. Akbar is a powerfully intelligent orator, whom I made contact with via email and to my pleasant surprise he has responded to me quickly every time that I message him.
I followed his advice and contacted the Association of Black Psychologists via email. Unfortunately, they also are not Carebridge EAP providers.
Today, July 25th, 2021
I admit it to the world:
I am living through depression, childhood trauma, PTSD as a military BRAT, emotional bypassing, and narcissistic tendencies.
I will do whatever it takes to become a better human, as long as I am honoring the most high and my ancestors.
I don’t know where this journey will lead, but I am dedicated to empowering myself and others.